The two musicians - Norm of Texas is the Reason and Shelter and Rob Fish of 108 look back at the hardcore scene which spawned the book, remembering famous shows and anecdotes and more.
Norm put together a lengthy interview for us so we're splitting it over two days. Check it out and be sure to visit The Music Hall of Williamsburg in Brooklyn, New York this weekend to check out the book, watch Snapcase play and help out Callum and J. Robbins.
If you need to catch up, you can check out the previous chapter here.
NORMAN: I really do believe that if you took the names out and put a Snapcase interview next to a Shudder To Think interview, youíd have to really think about who was talking.
ROB: I believe that.
NORMAN: Itís funny. I think that direction was influenced by something that most people donít know about me, which is that I had already sold my entire hardcore record collection in 1991 ó†two years before Anti-Matter. When I lived with you in 1992, I didnít own anything. And that basically meant that, honestly, I didnít listen to hardcore music. So in 1993, when I started the zine, all I had to go on was the personal experience: Who was at the shows? What bands were playing? Who did I think was cool? Who did I think had something good to say ó even if I didnít necessarily care for their band? There were totally bands in Anti-Matter that, honestly, I was not necessarily a fan of musically. I was more of a fan conceptually, you know? So I think the reason why I never talked about the music in Anti-Matter was because I didnít really listen to the music that much. I went to the shows. It was about the community and the scene and the people I was meeting. And obviously, some of those bands were incredible; they are still some of my favorite bands. But I didnít want to relegate the fanzine to my personal tastes in music. I wanted to figure out who had an interesting story to tell.
ROB: Thatís a lot like how I relate to bands today. I mean, there are bands that I love to watch. Are they on my iPod? Some of them. Do I listen to them much? Not really. But when I see them live, I know the people a little bit and I can really sense how true the music is to that person, and it makes me absolutely love the band that Iím seeing. The majority of bands that I promote a lot are bands that I can see are really investing their very being to the music theyíre playing. So even if I donít necessarily want to listen to it in my car all the time, I can still absolutely love the band and love what they do. That goes back to the whole nostalgia thing: Like, I got to see that whole American Hardcore movie, and Iíd say that everything up until the last ten minutes was cool. But when it got to those last ten minutes, I wanted to break my fucking computer. I walked away going, ďI hate these people!Ē Theyíre so bitter and disillusioned and they just think the whole punk rock world revolved around their silly little band. And itís like, yeah, your band was cool, but Iíll never be able to listen to it the same way now because youíre such an egocentric piece of shit about it.
NORMAN: I didnít see it. I kind of refuse to. What was in those last ten minutes?
ROB: Oh, you know, some dudes basically saying, ďOh, hardcore died in 1986 and these kids just arenít the same!Ē And Iím like, yeah, itís changed, you idiot! And yeah, the musicís changed. Even as much as I love Black Flag, if all I heard were bands trying to sound like The First Four Years, I would have left the punk scene fifteen years ago. Who the fuck wants to hear that again and again?
ROB: To me, when I look back at those bands, itís not the music that was so amazing as much as remembering how I felt the first time I heard it ó†and how I still relate to that today. Thatís whatís important. Sometimes Iíll be at a kidís house on tour and Iíll see these old records that I used to listen to when I was younger, and Iíll be like, ďOh, I used to love this record!Ē And then Iíll hear it and be like, ďWhat the fuck was I thinking?Ē But then I realize that it was because of the people and the places and what it meant to me at that moment, and so I can appreciate it on that level. There are a bunch of bands now that are reunited, that weíve been playing some of them, and honestly, I donít always feel a kinship to some of these bands because they seem so bitter and disillusioned about how things are ďso different now.Ē Iím like, fuck. Itís gotta be different.
NORMAN: 108 took how much time off from breaking up to reforming?
ROB: Almost ten years.
NORMAN: Right. And thatís a long time. Surely, you and Vic didnít think you would be walking back into whatever you walked out of.
ROB: And the thing was we didnít want to. The whole thing was that if it was just going to be about playing those old songs and trying to rekindle that ó none of us were into that. We canít emotionally invest ourselves in that. Because, really, doing this band is not easy for us to do between all our kids and careers and the fact that we all live in different parts of the country. So we all felt really strongly that if we couldnít write a record that meant more to us than our old songs did, then why would we even bother?
NORMAN: When we were doing those Texas is the Reason reunion shows last year, obviously, the big question we were getting was, ďAre you going to stay together?Ē All of the sudden, there were precedents set ó specifically with you guys and Lifetime. And Iím not gonna lie to you. We talked about it. We were having fun, even before the shows, and I think we sounded better than we ever did. But most of my personal reservations came from the idea of making new music under that name. I didnít like the idea of being chained to a blueprint that I made ten years ago, you know? That terrified me. So I really wondered how you guys were gonna deal with that. And I was so psyched to hear [A New Beat From A Dead Heart] because I donít really feel like youíre writing songs like you did back then. To me, the new 108 record is very fucking different. Itís like a different band.
ROB: Right, well, back then Vic was the primary songwriter. With this record, there were four people who wrote songs on it. There was no main songwriter. But when I really think about, I think it goes back to what we were talking about before. Back then, we were really living on our terms. We could do whatever we wanted to do in our personal lives. But, for me, right now, I would say that my life is more manic and desperate than it ever was before. And I would say that Trivikrama would echo that, and I think Vic would echo that. Thatís translated into the songs, too. I mean, we practically wrote the new album in three practices [laughs]!
NORMAN: I think weíre both at a point where weíre looking into our pasts with new eyes and trying to figure out how itís relevant to us today.
ROB: Absolutely. You know, a lot of how I judge a band these days all boils down to one question: If this person wasnít playing this show tonight, would he be fucking devastated? Thatís the standard I hold for myself. Thatís what I mean when I talk about the whole American Hardcore movie. These pompous pieces of shit are on there, and just because it doesnít mean as much to them now, they project that on the entire world. I resent that.
NORMAN: So is there anything you want to ask me?
ROB: God, I was just thinking about our old interview. What the fuck did I say?
NORMAN: [Laughs] Most of it was about your motherís death, which I think was a very present topic in your mind at that time.
ROB: Itís going to be a little surreal to read it, I think. Lately, my son has been asking a little bit about his grandmother. But I really donít remember much. I remember a lot of traumatic or negative or sad things, but yeah, it kind of sucks. I donít remember a lot of the good things.
NORMAN: I remember at the time feeling like you didnít talk about it that much. I knew that you seemed fairly uncomfortable about it, and I knew that Ressurection had that song ďFuck Your Sympathy.Ē I remember reading the lyrics to that song before I joined your band and feeling weird about it. Like, I understood the grief, but I didnít know where the anger was coming from.
ROB: That song is still very vivid to me in terms of why I wrote it. But remembering the person is not really easy for me.
NORMAN: And going back to what I was saying before about getting other people to tell my story, so to speak? Obviously, to me, when I think about our interview, I was essentially trying to talk about my best friend who had died in a car accident the same year that your mother passed. I was also dealing with that grief, and talking to you about your mother was my attempt to reflect on that.
ROB: Shit, I gotta read that interview now [laughs].
NORMAN: So I guess we could end by talking about the Anti-Matter Anthology Book Release Parties coming up [on November 24 & 25 at the Music Hall of Williamsburg in Brooklyn, NY]. You guys are playing with Snapcase, Triple Threat, and Soul Control.
ROB: The one thing that I think is really cool is that you are doing this show to celebrate the book, but even more important than that, youíre raising money for Cal Robbins by doing it. I mean, when I think back to that time period, there were so many great benefits. There was a point for Ressurection when it seemed like every show we played was a benefit for homeless people or something [laughs]. But that to me is really cool. Going to a hardcore show is great, but itís even better when you go to a hardcore show to support a really cool cause. These shows, the entire environment around the shows, the bands, the people involved ó it just seems like a very fitting way to celebrate that book, to talk about how punk rock is a community. Like Iíve never met J. Robbins. I donít think a lot of kids in the crowd will know too much about Government Issue or Jawbox. But thereís definitely a genuine feeling that J. is a person who is important to a lot of people and important to punk music, and this is a way to give back and be grateful about something.
NORMAN: I totally agree. I mean, obviously, J. Robbins had a huge impact on my life. He made the Texas is the Reason album for, like, $500 or something. Ours was the second record he ever produced. I know what itís like to be an entrepreneur or have your own business and barely get paid. And heís here, heís still making records. He gets paid a little more now, but heís out there doing it for himself. And I donít want anybody to ever feel like thatís the wrong decision. I want people to feel like they can pursue their passions and still take care of their families. So if that means that they receive a little help from their friends, then thatís what Iím here for. I want to help. That was a huge part of it, because that theme of community is kind of what makes the book important to me.
ROB: As a father, I couldnít even imagine being in that situation, so it means a lot to be able to contribute something towards that.
NORMAN: Itís exciting for me because there are so many great objectives with these shows. For one, we get to raise money for Cal. But after that, I want it to feel like a party. I want people to walk in and smile and be happy and feel like itís a celebration. I want the audience and the bands to have some fun with it. The Music Hall is big enough to feel like youíre at an event, but itís intimate enough to feel like you could introduce yourself to someone or maybe make a new friend. I plan on being out in the audience as much as I can, personally. I want these shows to really reflect something that I cared about ó not out of some weird Ď90s nostalgia thing, but because these are good things, whether itís 1994 or 2007. Talking to each other or breaking down that artificial wall, those will always be good things.