I wasn't happy any longer and hadn't been in a long time. I love music and this wasn't music to me. It wasn't the Kinison anymore, it got lost somewhere. I no longer was a part of the writing (which was my fault) and I felt like I had lost everything I had set out to do when I was a kid.
I used to be so excited about practice and writing even talking about the band. Now it made me sick to my stomach to even think about the band. Once inspiration leaves, it leaves with a vengeance.